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This is a question for my beautiful readers.

When you want to live purposefully, meaningfully, and altruistically, but find this wall of fear that says, "first you need to look after yourself, make money, go to school, be safe", how do you get past that wall and trust?

For those who have had this block and resolved it, what helped you?

Me and Marlem, an employee at the three-person restaurant I work at, were talking. I say "employee". She's an employee, but I'm not. She earns a steady salary, and works 9 to 5, because that's how she needs things to work. Me and Cristian, however, split the rest of the earnings at the end of the month and work as much as we need to/feel like. Pretty nice setup.

We at the Amor y Ser association value gratitude:

SCENARIO

Amor y Ser member 1 meets up with Amor y Ser member 2.

1: Here is your tea.

2: Oh, thankyou!

1: Thankyou for thanking me.

2: Thankyou, good sir, for the thanks of my thanks.

1: I am most obliged indeed for your thanks of my thanks of your thanks!

Dreams and Self-Love

So, there has been some progress on the self-love meditation. Mainly in realising how important it is to continue working on it.

This is what I've been eating practically every day since I started cooking again. This isn't so much a recipe as a formula:

You need a GRAIN FOOD. For me that cycles between wholegrain noodles, quinoa, and brown rice.

You cook it with more water than you need to make a soup - a solid one, but a soup. I usually end up with more solid than liquid, but about half and half is a good goal.

I'm afraid to say my burning desire to write about my food and exercise every day has imploded. Updates will be fewer and less detailed from now on, and I'll keep a personal diary instead.